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Well, I didn't go with Andy.
But I did spend the night at Hawk's house. We sat up all night talking. (Well, most of the time was spent talking) It felt so good. I wasn't sure what to expect, but when I had been there a while and he asked, "Do you think sitting over there fully clothed is pleasing your Master?" I knew we were right back where we left off... No hard feelings from him on my seeing Jeff... And trying to get away from Hawk completely... I should have known that would never happen.
He told me to keep seeing Jeff if I felt I had to. He knows that Jeff gives me that "touch of vanilla" that Hawk can't. He seems to feel that the reason that we went months without contact before was that I just didn't show up. I was waiting for an invitation. I don't know which is the way it should have been... I don't know if things will work out, but I know I enjoyed myself immensely last night...
We always talk about things that most people (at least the ones I know) would never talk about... WWII, Hannibal and his elephants, Napoleon, politics, past lives.... You name it, we talked about it... That is what I missed the most... Our long talks... He is like a walking library, and so fascinating to discuss things with.
His family had been telling him that he screwed up for the final time when they learned I was seeing someone else. His best friend, who really has never liked any of his previous girlfriends, even said that... But he knows me well enough that I think he knew I would be back...LOL
I am not sure this is a good thing, or the right thing, only that I feel more at home in my own skin when I am with him... And that is worth something in itself...
But I did spend the night at Hawk's house. We sat up all night talking. (Well, most of the time was spent talking) It felt so good. I wasn't sure what to expect, but when I had been there a while and he asked, "Do you think sitting over there fully clothed is pleasing your Master?" I knew we were right back where we left off... No hard feelings from him on my seeing Jeff... And trying to get away from Hawk completely... I should have known that would never happen.
He told me to keep seeing Jeff if I felt I had to. He knows that Jeff gives me that "touch of vanilla" that Hawk can't. He seems to feel that the reason that we went months without contact before was that I just didn't show up. I was waiting for an invitation. I don't know which is the way it should have been... I don't know if things will work out, but I know I enjoyed myself immensely last night...
We always talk about things that most people (at least the ones I know) would never talk about... WWII, Hannibal and his elephants, Napoleon, politics, past lives.... You name it, we talked about it... That is what I missed the most... Our long talks... He is like a walking library, and so fascinating to discuss things with.
His family had been telling him that he screwed up for the final time when they learned I was seeing someone else. His best friend, who really has never liked any of his previous girlfriends, even said that... But he knows me well enough that I think he knew I would be back...LOL
I am not sure this is a good thing, or the right thing, only that I feel more at home in my own skin when I am with him... And that is worth something in itself...
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